A nagging cough set in around Christmas 2022 and wouldn’t leave.
McLaurin video-conferenced with a nurse practitioner, who diagnosed a sinus infection and prescribed an antibiotic. McLaurin finished the pills and felt worse.
Fatigue consumed him. If he climbed the stairs at home, he had to lie down and rest.
A doctor suspected pneumonia and ordered a lung X-ray.
Fuzzy white spots on both lungs earned McLaurin a date with a pulmonologist, who performed a biopsy.
She called a few days later.
“Are you at home?” she asked.
“Yes,” McLaurin said.
“Are you alone?” she asked.
“No,” he said.
She broke the news: stage four lung cancer.
The words kicked him in the gut. He felt his consciousness floating, looking down at himself sitting in his blue leather recliner in the family room.
How was this possible? He was a runner. He taught other people how to be healthy. He never smoked, not even a drag in high school.
Later, an oncologist explained that 2 percent of people who develop lung cancer have no known risk factors — a history of smoking or exposure to second-hand smoke, radon, asbestos, airborne toxins, or drinking water tainted by arsenic. Neither did McLaurin have a family legacy of lung cancer, which gives the disease a slight edge.
He was a 2-percenter, sick for no discernible reason.
The outlook was dim. McLaurin read, and tried to forget, the survival statistics.
He wallowed in “Why me?” for a while, then brightened at a bump of relatively good luck.
His cancer had a mutation that made him a candidate for targeted treatment with a drug that could arrest and shrink the cancer. The pills arrived at his home in a biohazard bag last March. He took one a day.
He got immediate relief. His body felt physically lighter. After a month of treatment, he began running again. He started with a half-mile. Every week, he added another half-mile until he reached five to six miles.
That’s what he’s doing today: five miles, starting in the parking lot at Spencer Love Tennis Center, trotting past the Lewis Center, up the A&Y Greenway to Lake Brandt Road, down to Fire Station 41 and back again.
Tick-tick-tick-tick.
Running has meant so many things to McLaurin.
It started as a way to lose weight, build confidence and calm himself.
He lapped up the self esteem that came with setting time and distance goals, meeting them, upping them again and exceeding them again.
The activity shredded calories and anxiety.
He found another payoff after moving to Greensboro. A guy at church invited him to join a running group.
McLaurin wasn’t interested. His wife, Mitzi, urged him to go.
“She said, ‘Why don’t you go once and be nice, and they’ll probably stop asking you,’” he recalls. “It was hard to put myself out there. I think it came back to being the kid who was overweight and didn’t want to be seen, but the group was very accepting and welcoming. I fit right in.”
The run, a nine-mile out-and-back along the A&Y Greenway, flew by because he was talking to his fellow runners. McLaurin coined a term, “runship,” meaning the friendship that comes from running with others and sharing snippets of life along the way.
He started an online journal, RunnerDude’s Blog, to document the group’s successes.
His web of routes and contacts grew. Those connections were vital after he was laid off from publishing in 2009. He was blogging when it dawned on him: He could turn his passion into his profession.
He started RunnerDude’s Fitness in 2010 and grew the business at a blazing pace.
He organized runs for people of all abilities.
He rented a studio for teaching fitness.
He launched workshops and boot camps.
He birthed Run the ’Boro.
He organized the Canned Cranberry Sauce 10K, a Thanksgiving Day run that has collected tons of food for Greensboro Urban Ministry.
All around Greensboro, he drove his white Toyota pickup truck wrapped with decals advertising his business. Most of the time, he was tending his sweaty flock, toting water-filled coolers to spots along his routes.
The hard-to-miss coolers, labeled with “RunnerDude’s Fitness” in black marker, spawned their own stories.
Of casual walkers taking a bottle and leaving a dollar in the ice.
Of a severely dehydrated man stumbling across the water just in time to save his life. He made a sizable donation to RunnerDude later.
Of a man who tried to sell the water to runners who were registered for a RunnerDude event through downtown.
“He tried to sell our water back to us!” McLaurin says.
He unleashes a heh-heh-heh and shakes his head in wonder.
Tick-tick-tick-tick.
Herbie’s Hill is tugging at him again, this time on the return leg.
Most people think Greensboro is flat, he says, but this city is full of hills.
His runners tease him about it — “This route is a Thad bit hilly” — but McLaurin loves the climbs. For most of this life, he has been able to top them by dint of fitness and will.
Cancer has changed things.
At the mercy of limited energy, he runs when he is able.
He takes longer to recover.
He can’t do what he used to do, no matter how much he wants to.
It feels like cancer has compressed the aging process, he says.
It’s tough to accept.
So McLaurin has taken the only available path.
He has let go of shaping every route, every step.
More than ever, the route shapes him.
A good run is one he finishes, one that leaves his body feeling good afterward.
His time?
That depends on how you measure time.
Back at his truck, run completed, he consults his runner’s watch.
His average pace was 10:48 a mile.
Ten years ago, he would have averaged about 7:30 a mile.
In 2007, when he pushed himself to go faster and farther than ever, he would have knocked it out in 6:30.
So, yes, he has slowed down a lot, according to the clock.
But he uses other gauges to mark time now.
The number of chocolate-chip pancakes he makes with his two grandsons.
The number of times he stops running to read a historical marker.
The number of times he invites his daughter’s cats to curl up in his lap.
Recently, Mitzi, a school teacher, was surprised to see that McLaurin had bought a set of steps so their Chihuahua mix could climb onto the sofa and join the cuddles without McLaurin having to dump the cats.
Every time Mitzi asks him if he wants to go for a walk with her, he says yes.
He makes her baked oatmeal for breakfast.
McLaurin took up baking as a pastime during COVID. Now, he’s way into it, making a loaf of bread every week.
Knead and wait.
Knead and wait.
The process will not be rushed.
He has taken to writing down his recipes by hand because, he says, looking at someone’s handwriting is a very personal way to remember them.
Time?
It feels different now.
Standing here in the parking lot, wearing a T-shirt splotched with sweat, sipping water and joking in the breeze, the RunnerDude has arrived in a place he never saw on his route map.
He is finding peace in slowing down.
Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick. OH